The Changes In Me- Three Months Later

This past month has been very full. I finished my book Pleasing God which was pretty good. From a sermon I heard from Steven Furtick and the theme running in this book I have learned some things about sin. Steven Furtick talked about the code of Satan, how he gets us into error which comes from the three temptations of Jesus. The lust of the flesh, lust of the world and lust of pride. If we can stay away from these things it would be pleasing to God. I believe lust of knowledge could be in with the world. I had an experience with this these past 4 weeks. Then today I began a Lent devotion and it begins with Eve and her lust for knowledge. I recognize that this was her real problem, wanting to know more and know what God knows. This lust led her to the death of her spirit. I watched a couple movies that portrayed highly intelligent people, one was a true story. The Imitation Game was the true story which I watched because Steven Furtick mentioned it as to how he came up with the code of Satan. Then the movie Frequencies. I got real entangled with frequencies. I found out a lot of information about it but it was a major overload in my brain. I realized one morning that I shouldn’t try to understand something I can’t comprehend. I was going to write about how it relates to God but He has told me no and to stop researching it because it isn’t from Him. My mom also gave me confirmation on this because she has a dream where she was warning me to stop. I told her I already had. I can see from my devotional today that I was being tempted like Eve with knowledge. I don’t mean simple school knowledge. I am talking about the in depth knowledge that drives you crazy because it’s beyond you. God has revealed all we need to know in the Bible and if we just stay in those parameters we will be safe. The rest will be revealed to us in the New Earth and Heaven. So, I have vowed to keep studying the Bible and have time spent with God and in His presence and that’s all I need to do right now.  I have read a lot of The Pilgrim’s Progress also and was led to buy the movie. I really loved it. That has also showed me that staying on the path is knowing the Bible and what it says so when your faced with different situations you can recognize it for what it really is and remember what God says about it and stay away from what He has said to stay away from. In the movie whenever Christian was faced with something he recited scriptures from the Bible to help direct his way. This is what the Bible means when it says Your Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. Psalm 119:105 Jesus practiced this in the desert and again here he was faced with those temptations from Satan, the same ones we are tempted with today. We just need to be able to recognize them. This scripture about Jesus in the desert was in my devotion today for Lent also. This Lent I will be doing a devotion with the Mosaic Bible and Ann Voskamp’s Trail of the Tree. I am really excited about this because it will be like Advent. I have also ordered the Mosaic Bible to continue doing devotions throughout the year. This Bible is unique because it goes according the the church year which has different phases and this Bible has devotions and reading plans to go with the church year. So everyday I can have a plan and devotion to read in the Bible. I can’t wait to get it and I also got the Illuminated St. John’s Bible. It is so awesome! A scribe in Britain was challenged to illuminate the St. John’s Bible and it is a work of art. I wouldn’t have known about these Bibles if it hadn’t been for Ann Voskamp. She showed them to me on her blog A Holy Experience. She has been and still is a big influence on my walk recently. Steven Furtick also. I found a song that speaks to my spirit called I Dare You To Trust. I will put a video with the song below because this is Jesus speaking to me and has been a theme in my life lately.

A Time For Us

In my post about the dream I had with Jesus called “To Lie Down In Green Pastures”, I mentioned a Romeo and Juliet record that I had growing up. For my birthday this year my husband bought me a record player and I bought the Romeo and Juliet record in my dream. As I listened to it I couldn’t believe I was hearing Gregorian Chant at the end of side one! I researched to find what the chant is and the translation but couldn’t find it. Anyway, there has been another meaning that has come to me about this record and why it was in my dream with Jesus.

As I was reading my Advent devotional yesterday with Ann Voskamp she mentioned something that stuck out to me. She said we have to make space in our heart and in our time for Jesus. Then I remembered in the dream I felt like I had no time for Jesus and told Him if He had to go it was okay. Some one commented that maybe I actually think Jesus doesn’t have time for me. This brought it into a different perspective. Then a few weeks later I had an encounter with Jesus in my spirit where He revealed to me that I push love away. I don’t want to get hurt from loving others. I run away and He told me not to run away again. I felt a wall collapse inside of me, a dam really, cause I had a flood of tears come forth for about 5 or 6 hours.  Ever since this experience I have made myself more aware of love and giving to others. Ann goes on to say relationship is the only reality; there is nothing else. When grace conceives in you, you take hold of God. When you are a space to receive whatever the will of God is in this moment as grace, you take hold of God. I love how she said the will of God in this moment. Our lives are made of moments. like in the song These Small Hours. Rob Thomas says, our lives are made in these small hours, these little wonders, these twists and turns of fate. It’s our choice if we choose God in every moment. Will we chose fate or God?

So, with all this in mind my daughter came to me to sit in my lap yesterday and I said no initially because I felt hot from just getting out of the shower. But the Holy Spirit spoke to me right away and made me aware that this is the pushing away that God says not to do. In actuality I was pushing a gift from God away. So, I said for her to come back and I held her. After that I was drying my hair and the Holy Spirit came again and revealed, make time for love to be received instead of pushing it away. I realized that the theme song for Romeo and Juliet is ” A Time For Us!”  I felt Jesus telling me this song is for me and you. This is why the record was in my dream. He has been laying out the clues for me to figure this out. When you read the lyrics it’s awesome how they go with our relationship with Jesus. It wraps everything together in my dream into the perfect gift for Christmas.

A Time For US

A time for us some day there’ll be
When chains are torn by courage born of a love that’s free
A time when dreams so long denied
Can flourish as we unveil the love we now must hide

A time for us at last to see
A life worthwhile for you and me

And with our love through tears and thorns
We will endure as we pass surely through every storm
A time for us some day there’ll be a new world
A world of shining hope for you and me

For you and me

And with our love through tears and thorns
We will endure as we pass surely through every storm
A time for us some day there’ll be a new world
A world of shining hope for you and me

A world of shining hope for you and me

Ann also said, sometimes receiving is harder than giving.

Receiving means you have to open your hands, open your heart. When we do this, Jesus can come in. You will be able to experience Him like never before.





Anyone who loves Jesus will love this song!

Merry Christmas!

I’ve heard about this baby boy
Who’s come to earth to bring us joy
And I just want to sing this song to you
It goes like this, the fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
With every breath I’m singing Hallelujah
HallelujahA couple came to Bethlehem
Expecting child, they searched the inn
To find a place for You were coming soon
There was no room for them to stay
So in a manger filled with hay
God’s only Son was born, oh Hallelujah

The shepherds left their flocks by night
To see this baby wrapped in light
A host of angels led them all to You
It was just as the angels said
You’ll find Him in a manger bed
Immanuel and Savior, Hallelujah

A star shown bright up in the east
To Bethlehem, the wisemen three
Came many miles and journeyed long for You
And to the place at which You were
Their frankincense and gold and myrrh
They gave to You and cried out Hallelujah

I know You came to rescue me
This baby boy would grow to be
A man and one day die for me and you
My sins would drive the nails in You
That rugged cross was my cross, too
Still every breath You drew was Hallelujah

Advent Second Sunday- Peace

Yesterday I was cleaning my kitchen floor and felt myself start slipping into a feeling of perfectionism. I began to feel the weight of how dirty the floor was and how I didn’t feel like cleaning it to perfection. I finished and sat down before cleaning the bathroom. As I sat, I was drawn to this video and experienced God speaking to me through Ann. It brought tears to my eyes because I felt Him telling me to stop the perfectionism as Ann specifically points out. I couldn’t believe it! Hold on to peace this Christmas.

The Child In Us- Enigma

This is talking about Jesus and how we need Him and how we need to keep childlike faith to connect.

Translation by

prasanna vadanaaM saubhaagyadaaM bhaagyadaaM
hastaabhyaaM abhayapradaaM maNigaNair-
naanaavidhair-bhuushhitaaM who is of smiling face, bestower of all fortunes,
whose hands are ready to rescue anyone from fear,
who is adorned by various ornaments with precious stones
Puer natus est nobis,
et filius datus est nobis:
cujus emperium super humerum…
For to us a child is born,
to us a son is given:
and the government will be upon his shoulder..
Some day you came
And I knew you were the one
You were the rain, you were the sun
But I needed both, cause I needed you
You were the one
I was dreaming of all my life
When it is dark you are my light
But don’t forget
Who’s always our guide
It is the child in us